ijust got back from summer camp !! yayyyyy :)

     i go to a summer camp for queer teens. it s a really cool place !! everyone there is so nice to me . i m really happy to have found somewhere where i belong :)

     there was a drug bust on the second night, though . crazy , right ? in my cabin, too . i might make another post about that later .

      cya !!!!!!!!

     i have many friends who love me a lot and are very kind . they are willing to do very sweet things for me , unflinchingly . so i dont really know why i assume myself to be so unlikable ?

    heres my friend switching out the wheels of my quads . he gifted me the wheels off his old, retired pair for free !!! :) hes one of the greatest skaters i know and always has something funny to say

    this is my local rink (well, a blurry shot of it off my phone whilst i was on the floor, lol) . its lackluster in comparison to the other rinks in my area -- which all have considerably larger floors, no water damage, and arent .. in what is essentially a shed adjacent to a jewish community center (nothing wrong with a jewish community center, of course, the zoning is just a little peculiar in my opinion xD) but .. its where all my friends are, so every day i return :)

    maybe the lesson learned is that even if youre not super likable -- abrasive, assertive, etc -- that people will like you anyway . which is cool , because i dont think being asocial is a moral failing . maybe its just another thing about you .

     working on the first draft of the anchorhold, one of the stories in my newest anthology.

     this is exciting to me, because ive only ever been published in anthologies outside of myself, instead of in my very own compilation of stories all by me. and now i am doing it! this is awesome!

    sidenote, however -- never publish written works under the age of fourteen. do not do what i did. i once won a cash prize for a poem i wrote in middle school that-- though the judges found particularly touching-- i had no desire to revisit. =_=

 i dont know if i am gay or bisexual..

i mostly find myself attracted to men, but i have found myself sporadically interested in girls -- yet all the girls ive found myself to be into are a bit older than me =_= ... sigh

what will i do when i start to pass?? i started hrt (hormone replacement therapy) a month or so ago, and my voice is already dropping .. by seventeen, i might look like just any other guy, which on one hand is very exciting and relieving, whilst on the other ... means i will have to tell people that im trans. not.. looking forward to that part.

im not sure quite yet, but i have time.

       hey, first post on the blog!

       to be honest, i'm not entirely sure that i know how this whole thing works. i wanted to try my hand at it, though, and what better way to learn than from experience? either way, welcome, the few of you that will ever find this thing. lol